im having recurring paranoid feelings and i dont know what to do.feel like im losing control of what is real...what i am actually feeling and what i think im feeling. for instance, if i go out, and wake up the next day,i end up torturing myself for situations that i invent in my mind but have no memory of. i dont know whether i have displaced guilt or whether im some sort of horrible person who does rediculous things. but however lame this might seem im suffering.
im having severe feelins of self loathing at the moment. sometimes i want to kill myself. this sounds stupid because i dont feel i have justified myself properly. but all u need toknow is that im suffering. deeply